BROKENNESS TO WHOLENESS

🎶“Once I was broken……………………🎶

Brokenness is where I used to live 

Broken,  is what many called me

It’s what I called myself

Before I met Him.

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See,

Brokenness was a place of darkness

But it was home

I knew every wall, every dark door

I intricately defined its structure, effortlessly

But unbeknownst to me, was the exit.

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Brokenness; chairperson of ruin.

Pain; the dish I consumed.

Darkness; my surrounding.

Together, they marked and defined me 

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Brokenness said,

“You’re  not good enough”

“You don’t  measure up.”

“You are unworthy”

I believed him

***

They say “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.”

I thought the pain made me stronger

But

Sometimes being strong is exhausting

Frailty can offer solace

🎶(……you loved my whole heart through)🎶

The brokenness in me was purposeful

There was one who could love my broken pieces back together

His name is Wholeness

He didn’t love me despite my brokenness

He loved me because of my brokenness

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At first glance.

Foreign, unfamiliar is what described Him.

He was light when all I knew was darkness

He was Joy when I only knew pain

He was love

Something I had never known

He was Wholeness,

When I identified as broken.

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Wholeness sat with me

In my pain and brokenness

He shared in my pain

Something no one had ever done for me before

And for the first time

I felt seen.

He sat with me long enough

For me to freely give up the pain and darkness

He didn’t force me out of my pain.

Wholeness held my hand

And with His marvelous light

He made a way for me

Out of brokenness

To a beautiful place; my new home; wholeness

***

Wholeness was like a garden

Full of the most beautiful flowers; divine, idyllic.

Wholeness was full of light

Wholeness redefined me

***

“You are  a masterpiece”

“You are beautiful”

“You are worthy.”

“You are  enough”

“You are Whole”

…………..are whispers; daily whispers from Wholeness.

***

Waves of temptation hit the shores

Tempting to draw me

Into drifting, sinking back into that place I used to know

But Wholeness is always holding my hand

Never letting me go.

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How could I leave this place?

Where there is no hate, just love

This place where I can share my pain

In confidence that Wholeness Himself sits with me

This place where I can be myself and be loved for it

How could I leave this place?

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Sometimes I mourn the days I lived in darkness

But it’s the darkness that makes me greatly appreciate the light

It’s the brokenness that makes the wholeness worthwhile.

Brokenness or Wholeness?

I say “Choose Him”

My God of Wholeness.

(Healed and forgiven, look where my chains are now

sin has no hold of me

Cause your grace holds me now) 🎶 Whole Heart- Hillsong.