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The cross,

Where life was given

Where love was defined

Where grace was birthed

Where victory was achieved

All for me.

I can’t say I have a favorite holiday. Sure, I love Christmas because of the food and family time but I’ve always been more inclined to Easter; mainly because of the four-day long weekend that comes with the holiday. It’s probably why you love Easter too; not because of the Easter bunny or the colorful eggs because let’s be honest, we only see this in movies. But recently, out of understanding, Easter has become my favorite holiday. It’s the whole reason why I’m a Christian today. I mean, everything worthwhile and of significance was begot at the cross: grace, salvation, and freedom

When we backtrack to see the circumstances that led to our salvation, we meet Jesus whose purpose in life was to live and then die for all people; one who was born of the Holy Spirit, who grew in wisdom and stature and did everything in obedience to his Father. He lived his whole life in preparation for Calvary; the great moment of suffering. Suffering is the reason why Easter is my favorite holiday. You must be wondering, “What? Suffering?” Yes, Suffering. It’s the way I relate to Christ’s cup of suffering at that time, that makes me appreciate the cross more; not forgetting the implication on me as a wretched sinner who was exempted from judgment because of Jesus.

Bruno Mars sang, “I’ll catch a grenade for you, throw my hand on a blade for you, jump in front of a train for you…”  I remember singing along to the lyrics as a teenager with a passion that was surface-level; having no depth or intent of devoting myself to this extent and I assure you Bruno Mars did not mean it either. While none of us would entertain this even merely as a thought, there is one who was flogged, mocked, and humiliated for you. He was nailed on a wooden cross for you. He bled and died for you and He would still have done it all if it was just for you. No grand gesture could ever top this.

Easter is more than a holiday, it is an invitation to remembrance.

Why wouldn’t I live in awe of this moment, where true and intentional love was demonstrated for me?

He knows what loving is

He’s acquainted with our grief

Man of sorrow, son of suffering.

In the moments before his death, Jesus was betrayed by one of his own (Luke 22:3). He had spent three years with His disciples, grooming them, and being vulnerable with them while preparing them to be His representatives on the earth. They had become His friends. Judas was in Jesus’ inner circle. Jesus had even washed his feet. So for him to betray Jesus for just 30 silver coins, must have hurt. I have experienced betrayal and, on those days I know that my King Jesus understands. When one of his favorites, Peter, who had sworn to even go to prison with him denied him not once but thrice, it must have torn through His heart. When the very people he came to this world to save turned against him, when they all screamed, “Crucify Him,” (Matthew 27:22) after He had been found innocent by Pilate and Herod, that must’ve pierced even deeper. Knowing that Jesus understands hurt invites me to go to him with my hurt. He understands my grief, He understands my rejection, and He understands my pain. He has felt it all.

As He was praying at Mount Olives, Jesus asked the Father if the cup of suffering could be taken away from him. The Bible says that he was in such agony in Spirit that his sweat fell to the ground like great drops of blood (Luke 22:41-43). At this point, Jesus had a point of weakness in His spirit where He struggled a little bit with His whole purpose. He wanted out just like we are tempted to when our spirits are crushed during hardships. He was fully God and fully man and at that moment His humanity was in full manifest. But nothing in the Bible or in God’s Kingdom happens by chance.

I believe that this moment of weakness was significant of the times His children, struggle with our purpose. When we want to throw in the towel and call it quits. When giving up is way easier than seeing things through, we can remember this moment when the savior of all the earth struggled with obedience and we can find a way through it as we adopt the posture of yielding and surrendering to the Father’s will. He prayed “…nevertheless not my will but yours be done.”. What I really hear him say is, “I don’t really want to do this, but I will do it because I trust you.” And to God, that was enough. That moment of honesty between the father and the son shows me that I can be honest with the father about my struggle, fear, and even doubt. After Jesus admitted His weakness, the Father sent an angel to strengthen Him. At this moment, he showed me that it is okay to sometimes struggle with obedience and that it is okay to want out of my calling at times. But what I should always remember is that it is His will over my life and not mine. And that in that moment of weakness, I can always go to him. His power is made perfect in my weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). He strengthens me and gives me the grace to go on. I can trust him with my weakness.

Growing up, we used to have evening crusades in our estates during easter where we would all watch the Passion of Christ in Swahili on a big white screen. It was one of my favorite things to do. But the scene, where Jesus is whipped, nailed on a cross, and on Him is put a crown of thorns was always hard to watch. My friends and I used to cry rivers during that scene. It was so painful for Christ. Because of this, I know that he understands physical pain. So when my body aches and I’m in so much pain I can go to Him and He would understand because of this moment. After that painful flogging by my mum as a child, had I known this earlier, I would have gone to Jesus with my physical hurt.


“After this, Jesus knowing that all things were now accomplished……” (vs 28). He said: “It is finished!” (vs 29) – (John 19:28-30)

While it looked like it had gotten hopeless for the followers of Jesus and they had lost as they watched Him die, it couldn’t be further from the truth. For us, our separation from God was finished, our condemnation and judgment were lifted off and the gap was bridged and everything separating us from God’s love was put to an end

Today, as we reflect on the sacrifice of Calvary, may the ache of seeing the son of suffering bring us to work out our salvation in the humble pursuit of righteousness. “For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.” (2 Corinthians 5:21). He suffered so we would know God.

Sunday is coming! Victory is granted Happy Good Friday!

You are incredibly loved by the one whose love has no limits.

2 thoughts on “SON OF SUFFERING

  1. May God help me to live in remembrance always. 😍
    This great love ,like no other.

    Thank You Jules for putting it so well

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