LIVING IN THE “UNKNOWN”

A week ago, I was having a conversation with a friend and she began commending some of the changes in my life as well as the vision of Christ My Anchor. As we got into it, I shared some of the unprecedented steps I have had to take while running with this vision and I texted her this “I like this space of the unknown though..it offers such great reliance on Him (God) and I love that”  That has been my reality ever since I dived deep into this vision of Christ My Anchor. Every day, I have a renewed appreciation for God’s presence over all that I set my hands to touch; starting with keyboards (even now as I type) and the people he has surrounded me with.

My personality comes with the detail-oriented trait. I like the details. I like to analyze and I enjoy matching everything together which requires a comprehensive knowledge of information. I can’t analyze while I have some missing pieces, can I? I was the chairperson of the “anti-not knowing” club. Not knowing was just so foreign to me. Be it knowing things that go on around me, new ideas, new developments, new projects, old ones, name it. I love knowing because being ahead of things is satisfactory and the only surprises I love are the kind of surprises that include a party and gifts and yet still my need to know almost ruins the surprises.

However, God has humbled me pretty well in regard to this. For starters, He is all-knowing while I am only allowed to know fragments so I don’t even stand a chance of winning. Additionally, the surrendered life I aim to live daily is the beginning of a life of not knowing. Over the years, I have had to embrace that truth and get comfortable under the shadow of the Almighty. But my dependence got extremely heightened and solidified when I was given a gift to steward; the kind that is beyond me and scares me to the core. I am currently reading Chase The Lion by Mark Batterson and he says “If a dream doesn’t scare you, it’s too small. It also falls short of God’s glory by not giving Him an opportunity to show up and show off His power.” Being scared isn’t a permit to fear or shrink back, God doesn’t give us the spirit of fear (2 Timothy 1:7); nonetheless, the scare factor is the evidence of our powerlessness.

What does living in the unknown look like ? It is not knowing what will be so I can know what is through Him.

It means getting comfortable with : Not knowing when you will move out of the country, not knowing when you will get a job, not knowing when you will start a business, not knowing when you will expand your career, not knowing when you will get married, not knowing when you will have kids, not knowing where you will retire, not knowing how you will get through this hard time, not knowing why that tragedy happened to you, not knowing why he/ she broke your heart, not knowing which road you need to take, not knowing all the events of your days or how your entire weeks outcome will look like. If you are  a planner like I am, this was just a stab to the heart and I apologize.

Genesis 12:4 "So Abraham went... as the Lord had told him"

Abraham embodies obedience so greatly and as we see throughout the Bible, it continuously changes the trajectory of his life. He wasn’t told where he was going and yet with no hesitation, he packed and went. Replaying this in my head as I assume Abraham’s role has me in a fit; I would’ve probably nagged God with the required details of where I was going, how long it would take to get there, and if I was ever going to come back. The need to know always makes one agitated especially when you cannot piece it together and it does no good to the soul. All God requires is a heart that will trust Him as He works it out; a heart that is ready to redirect whatever path they were on to jump on His track; no questions asked. We need to live each day with expectations and yet be okay with not knowing the full picture. Revelation from God is more powerful than our own made-up theories of ideas of the when and the hows!

Living in the unknown isn’t a means to be passive; it is the soul’s accepted posture of reliance that God is glorified in. A means of saying “I don’t know because I wait on you and as you prompt and instruct me as I wait, I will obey with no question.”

If I was adamant about knowing everything, Christ My Anchor would never have been born. If you had told me, I would be running a website and launching journals within a span of six months of inception, I would’ve laughed and denied it because I would’ve counted myself as unprepared, disqualified, and even unworthy. But it is through living in the unknown that has brought me and Christ My Anchor into places of knowing God more and seeing His hand in every situation and oh boy, have we been experiencing surprises on a daily basis.

God doesn’t necessarily love us asking “when” but He loves when we say ‘I TRUST YOU” Joyce Meyer- Making good habits, Breaking bad habits

I DON’T KNOW THE ANSWERS, BUT I KNOW GOD

When we look at our relationship with God, we cannot say that we know Him entirely and everything about Him can we? Because every day He reveals Himself in new ways that trigger more and more pursuit. If we are in a constant, endless phase of knowing our creator, the one who holds our future in His hands, how can we expect to know the timelines of events in our lives?

Be okay not knowing, just know God! It is okay to have blanks in your pages because when the time is right He hands you the pen and you can write the outcome of your story and testify! Like Travis Greene sang, may we rejoice in not knowing how He did it and still celebrate that He made a way!

SELF REFLECT

1. What areas of your life do you need to quit the urge to know it all? What things have robbed you of the joy of living in the unknown and seeing God move in splendor and majesty?
2. What view of God do you need to appreciate in order to fully surrender?

Remember: It is not a pass to be passive; it is a posture of waiting and hanging on every word from God. Therefore we can live in contentment because we know Him and are known by Him. Psalms 139:16-17

Stay anchored. Keep His light shining through.